Messy Hand!
Perfect Way to Start the Morning
I had a rare time where I was at my house alone (my hubby and sister were away and i had a dentist appointment that afternoon). I started out the morning in prayer and reading the word. I lit candles and read my intuitive painting book and decided I needed to paint. I've put it off for a week due to work responsibilities but TODAY it would be a priority. It was wonderful. I wish i could start my day like this everyday and go to work at 12 pm. The best of both worlds. The below is my painting that came forth...i don't feel like it's finished but i really love it. the more and more i look at it..i begin to see different things. I now see a helper talking to a small child...guiding them ..i wonder if that child is me. I've let this painting sit on my easel until I can decide whats next.
Sacred Relationship with Christ brings Recognition that you need to embrace your Inner Power.
In my perfect morning i decided to dust off my word baskets, grace cards, and inspirational cards and build a poem, affirimation, or inspiration or whatever comes using the words and below is what came about that I love (unexpected).
Throughness is required in this act.
There should be no surprise that you need to enhance your communication skills to uncover the gift that allows you to embody your Goddess within yourself.
Surrender
In a conversation with hubby he said that I need to surrender. After he said that i kept hearing the word everywhere i went during the course of my day. Usually when a word or scripture is shown to me several times..that's part of my banner so to speak for the year. This year I will unfold and surrender. I couldnt go to sleep last night until really late. I wanted to paint but i wanted to sleep. I wanted to paint but I read instead. Around 3 or 4 am in the morning ..i put on pandora and started painting. That was the best thing to do. Feeding my spirit what it craved. It's hungry:) By 6 am I ended up with two paintings (one of the paintings is not finished yet. i wish i took a pic of it last night because it looks much different today now that I worked on it more.
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| Surrender |
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| Unfinished painting (The painting wants more..I'm just not sure what as of yet). |
Honoring the urge in my soul to paint
I've been wanting to take the time to paint for a few weeks now but I haven't done so for a myriad of reasons. The time came to finally partner with my brush when the book Brave Intuitive Painting arrived at my house. I opened it and put down. Went on with my day for the next few days. The urge reappeared...this time it was telling me to buy a canvas (while i was at this discount store I bought three...after all it was 2.99). Then through the course of the evening i became sad, lonely, and just emotional. A few hours later the urge came again.....PAINT! I took my supplies and did just that. I painted with no image in mind and produced two paintings and felt a sense of relief. I crashed in my bed immediately.
The morning of i realized two things:
yesterday i was emotional eating because of the myraid of emotions and painting gave me a relief (it was the outlet i needed)
Little did I know it at the time, but I became partners with my paintbrush and he gave me to my husband to dance with to work the feelings i was having yesterday. I was able to clearly articulate how i was feeling and my painting allow me to do that because I was able to create...birth something that i didnt know i need to birth. Allow myself to let something emerge without any preconceived notion of what it would look like. Words to come into my spirit that needed to be said. Acknowledge areas that my soul craves and how I am feeling. My husband used a word that i think is perfect fit with my word unfold...SURRENDER. After the convo with him I felt so much better. I never name my art but as I'm typing the names appeared.
The morning of i realized two things:
yesterday i was emotional eating because of the myraid of emotions and painting gave me a relief (it was the outlet i needed)
Little did I know it at the time, but I became partners with my paintbrush and he gave me to my husband to dance with to work the feelings i was having yesterday. I was able to clearly articulate how i was feeling and my painting allow me to do that because I was able to create...birth something that i didnt know i need to birth. Allow myself to let something emerge without any preconceived notion of what it would look like. Words to come into my spirit that needed to be said. Acknowledge areas that my soul craves and how I am feeling. My husband used a word that i think is perfect fit with my word unfold...SURRENDER. After the convo with him I felt so much better. I never name my art but as I'm typing the names appeared.
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| Metamorphosis |
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| Birthing |
Collage Exercise-DailyOM
The word stifling comes to mind when i am given an exercise and I realize that I'm off put by the requirement of an assignment. I'm not sure if my work prior to DM I would recognize what stifling feels like it. The stifling word came up in my collage exercise where i decided to follow the assignment as given.
There was a particular dialogue that preceded the assignment that I felt particular drawn to:
"It is actually impossible to plan for an authentic life. You must be vibrantly ready for the truth of your life to reveal itself to you from moment to moment. You can choose to taste the freedom of not knowing ahead of time what will be created today. So it is the same for this collage process. Art mirrors life and your capacity to open up to life is related to how willing you are to freely express yourself spontaneously and follow your inner urges. Your truth is built on a succession of impulses that express your life force a little more each day."
Collage Exercise:
Daily Practice: Cultivating Loose Play The daily practice this week is to simply and playfully paste together random images without thought on one page of your journal each day. Try to fill the whole page with imagery and words but do not feel pressured if your choices for the day are simple and spare. If you feel the need for empty spaces, allow that. I recommend pasting your collage on the right page of your journal and writing insights and intuitions on the opposite page. The simple act of pasting random images together, with an open, quiet mind allows new connections to arise into your awareness. Insights may come unexpectedly and spontaneously after the collage is finished. Progressively, I will offer some directed methods to help you deepen your connection to your collage. Until then it is helpful to loosely play and paste down anything that attracts your attention. Let yourself lose track of time. Do not strive for meaning or engage your logical mind as you create. It is important that you reflect on your collage after it is finished rather than during the process.
Trust that as you cut out the images, you are piecing together a waking dream that you might not understand at the moment, but which will gradually make deep sense within your being. Immerse yourself in a sense of deep play. Remember when you were a child and you allowed each moment to unfold. Similarly, don't just rush into achievement with your collage. Play with the arrangement of your images before you cover the back of your images with a glue stick and place them in your journal. Allow your first spontaneous collage to be quite rough and playful. For now, it is important to just begin.
The below is my result of random play..which seemed stifling...surprisingly it has brought my mood down..I viscerally feel the feeling of "I don't like being in a box" and feel kind of somber. Its interesting how a small exercise I've allowed to have such an impact on me. Maybe because Ive been on such a high. Its not that I don't like the result..its ok...its just the process was not fun. Its feels less orderly than my other random images. I know the process cant be always fun (deep down). I think now that I've tapped into what it truly means to express myself freely. I have a BIG problem when I dont feel like I'm able to express and am told what to do. Art has made me so raw. This is going to take some getting used to....
There was a particular dialogue that preceded the assignment that I felt particular drawn to:
"It is actually impossible to plan for an authentic life. You must be vibrantly ready for the truth of your life to reveal itself to you from moment to moment. You can choose to taste the freedom of not knowing ahead of time what will be created today. So it is the same for this collage process. Art mirrors life and your capacity to open up to life is related to how willing you are to freely express yourself spontaneously and follow your inner urges. Your truth is built on a succession of impulses that express your life force a little more each day."
Collage Exercise:
Daily Practice: Cultivating Loose Play The daily practice this week is to simply and playfully paste together random images without thought on one page of your journal each day. Try to fill the whole page with imagery and words but do not feel pressured if your choices for the day are simple and spare. If you feel the need for empty spaces, allow that. I recommend pasting your collage on the right page of your journal and writing insights and intuitions on the opposite page. The simple act of pasting random images together, with an open, quiet mind allows new connections to arise into your awareness. Insights may come unexpectedly and spontaneously after the collage is finished. Progressively, I will offer some directed methods to help you deepen your connection to your collage. Until then it is helpful to loosely play and paste down anything that attracts your attention. Let yourself lose track of time. Do not strive for meaning or engage your logical mind as you create. It is important that you reflect on your collage after it is finished rather than during the process.
Trust that as you cut out the images, you are piecing together a waking dream that you might not understand at the moment, but which will gradually make deep sense within your being. Immerse yourself in a sense of deep play. Remember when you were a child and you allowed each moment to unfold. Similarly, don't just rush into achievement with your collage. Play with the arrangement of your images before you cover the back of your images with a glue stick and place them in your journal. Allow your first spontaneous collage to be quite rough and playful. For now, it is important to just begin.
The below is my result of random play..which seemed stifling...surprisingly it has brought my mood down..I viscerally feel the feeling of "I don't like being in a box" and feel kind of somber. Its interesting how a small exercise I've allowed to have such an impact on me. Maybe because Ive been on such a high. Its not that I don't like the result..its ok...its just the process was not fun. Its feels less orderly than my other random images. I know the process cant be always fun (deep down). I think now that I've tapped into what it truly means to express myself freely. I have a BIG problem when I dont feel like I'm able to express and am told what to do. Art has made me so raw. This is going to take some getting used to....
More Art Coming out of my pores...
After writing a nourishing catch up email to Carey. I got the bug again to create around 1 am...so I logged onto Daily OM and went to my collage exercise. The assignment was to pick random images and play around with them before gluing them. But when I read the initial quote below i started cutting out images that appealed to me and pasted them. Apparently in my mind they are not so random..but a clear image of just as one of the top images says, " Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself."
Ahh..creative juices feel so delicious...
"It is our duty to awaken understanding of our inner self and know our real inner greatness…therefore meditate on yourself, honor and worship your own self, kneel to yourself and see God hidden in your own heart." -Swami Muktananda
Ahh..creative juices feel so delicious...
| The Freedom of Play |
"It is our duty to awaken understanding of our inner self and know our real inner greatness…therefore meditate on yourself, honor and worship your own self, kneel to yourself and see God hidden in your own heart." -Swami Muktananda
Marvelous Unexpected Creative Day
The day after thanksgiving I decided I will not log onto my work email (this is my day off and i need to treat it as such). I want to listen to what my body needed. I ate maybe a bit too much (not sure if that was my body talking. lol). I logged onto facebook and saw the wonderful soul F that I met during my training posted this wonderful video with her creating (painting specifically). The video was BEAUTIFUL and it gave me this undeniable energy to paint.
I'm also reminded that i created this corner of art space in my bedroom mine months ago in prepration for Robin moving in with us. i dont use it often because everything feels so cramped. My house hasnt felt like mine in months because its cluttered theres no free "real" space. I am reminded that we dont have to have much space to create.
My intent has been to paint ever since I returned from training but one thing led to another and it has not come. Friday was different. i took the covers off of me, put on an old shirt which will be my painting shirt, and gathered supplies from my art corner. I went to the kitchen and grabbed a plastic spoon and fork (my drawing class and ea training taught me that you can use ordinary objects to draw and paint.). I pressed play on pandora and begain to paint. Before I knew it..I painted 8 paintings (I have never painting that much). It felt great..liberating, freeing. I was in such a zone. The paintings werent anything specific but just feeling my brush across the canvas, feeling myself in the painting, just being present was amazing!!! Something my director d asked us is to talk to ur paintings..see what it needs. i looked and felt nothing was needed and moved on. Funny thing about this impromtu painting session is I had no blank canvas. I actually painting over old paintings. There wasnt a question of whether i should but just a purposeful intent to paint. The below is the result of such a wonderful day.
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I'm also reminded that i created this corner of art space in my bedroom mine months ago in prepration for Robin moving in with us. i dont use it often because everything feels so cramped. My house hasnt felt like mine in months because its cluttered theres no free "real" space. I am reminded that we dont have to have much space to create.
My intent has been to paint ever since I returned from training but one thing led to another and it has not come. Friday was different. i took the covers off of me, put on an old shirt which will be my painting shirt, and gathered supplies from my art corner. I went to the kitchen and grabbed a plastic spoon and fork (my drawing class and ea training taught me that you can use ordinary objects to draw and paint.). I pressed play on pandora and begain to paint. Before I knew it..I painted 8 paintings (I have never painting that much). It felt great..liberating, freeing. I was in such a zone. The paintings werent anything specific but just feeling my brush across the canvas, feeling myself in the painting, just being present was amazing!!! Something my director d asked us is to talk to ur paintings..see what it needs. i looked and felt nothing was needed and moved on. Funny thing about this impromtu painting session is I had no blank canvas. I actually painting over old paintings. There wasnt a question of whether i should but just a purposeful intent to paint. The below is the result of such a wonderful day.
The paintings are displayed from the last item i painted to the first one:
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