Honoring the urge in my soul to paint

I've been wanting to take the time to paint for a few weeks now but I haven't done so for a myriad of reasons. The time came to finally partner with my brush when the book Brave Intuitive Painting arrived at my house. I opened it and put down. Went on with my day for the next few days. The urge  reappeared...this time it was telling me to buy a canvas (while i was at this discount store I bought three...after all it was 2.99). Then through the course of the evening i became sad, lonely, and just emotional. A few hours later the urge came again.....PAINT! I took my supplies and did just that. I painted with no image in mind and produced two paintings and felt a sense of relief. I crashed in my bed immediately.

The morning of i realized two things:

yesterday i was emotional eating  because of the myraid of emotions and painting gave me a relief (it was the outlet i needed)
Little did  I know it at the time, but I became partners with my paintbrush and he gave me to my husband to dance with to work the feelings i was having yesterday. I was able to clearly articulate how i was feeling and my painting allow me to do that because I was able to create...birth something that i didnt know i need to birth. Allow myself to let something emerge without any preconceived notion of what it would look like. Words to come into my spirit that needed to be said. Acknowledge areas that my soul craves and how I am feeling. My husband used a word that i think is perfect fit with my word unfold...SURRENDER. After the convo with him I felt so much better. I never name my art but as I'm typing the names appeared.

Metamorphosis

Birthing