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| Surrender |
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| Unfinished painting (The painting wants more..I'm just not sure what as of yet). |
Surrender
In a conversation with hubby he said that I need to surrender. After he said that i kept hearing the word everywhere i went during the course of my day. Usually when a word or scripture is shown to me several times..that's part of my banner so to speak for the year. This year I will unfold and surrender. I couldnt go to sleep last night until really late. I wanted to paint but i wanted to sleep. I wanted to paint but I read instead. Around 3 or 4 am in the morning ..i put on pandora and started painting. That was the best thing to do. Feeding my spirit what it craved. It's hungry:) By 6 am I ended up with two paintings (one of the paintings is not finished yet. i wish i took a pic of it last night because it looks much different today now that I worked on it more.
Honoring the urge in my soul to paint
I've been wanting to take the time to paint for a few weeks now but I haven't done so for a myriad of reasons. The time came to finally partner with my brush when the book Brave Intuitive Painting arrived at my house. I opened it and put down. Went on with my day for the next few days. The urge reappeared...this time it was telling me to buy a canvas (while i was at this discount store I bought three...after all it was 2.99). Then through the course of the evening i became sad, lonely, and just emotional. A few hours later the urge came again.....PAINT! I took my supplies and did just that. I painted with no image in mind and produced two paintings and felt a sense of relief. I crashed in my bed immediately.
The morning of i realized two things:
yesterday i was emotional eating because of the myraid of emotions and painting gave me a relief (it was the outlet i needed)
Little did I know it at the time, but I became partners with my paintbrush and he gave me to my husband to dance with to work the feelings i was having yesterday. I was able to clearly articulate how i was feeling and my painting allow me to do that because I was able to create...birth something that i didnt know i need to birth. Allow myself to let something emerge without any preconceived notion of what it would look like. Words to come into my spirit that needed to be said. Acknowledge areas that my soul craves and how I am feeling. My husband used a word that i think is perfect fit with my word unfold...SURRENDER. After the convo with him I felt so much better. I never name my art but as I'm typing the names appeared.
The morning of i realized two things:
yesterday i was emotional eating because of the myraid of emotions and painting gave me a relief (it was the outlet i needed)
Little did I know it at the time, but I became partners with my paintbrush and he gave me to my husband to dance with to work the feelings i was having yesterday. I was able to clearly articulate how i was feeling and my painting allow me to do that because I was able to create...birth something that i didnt know i need to birth. Allow myself to let something emerge without any preconceived notion of what it would look like. Words to come into my spirit that needed to be said. Acknowledge areas that my soul craves and how I am feeling. My husband used a word that i think is perfect fit with my word unfold...SURRENDER. After the convo with him I felt so much better. I never name my art but as I'm typing the names appeared.
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| Metamorphosis |
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| Birthing |
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